write all the ppl i meltz in 2469756 books

bala thinks i shld do that when i was complaining to him about how nobody ever returns my meltz for them one day. he says its cux i meltz too much the ppl lost track and he thinks writing a book about the ppl i meltz can help me earn some money in future. haha.

so anw, i've been thinking about marriage and the whole courtship before marriage thing very often these few days, before i go to bed, during assembly, when i have nothing to do, when school's a bore and i cant absorb anything anymore, on the bus, when i bathe. its like i cant get the matter out of my head and its kinda disturbing cux i think of the really nice stuff sometimes and the worst case scenario too. funny how i can think so much and when its time to think during exams, nothing comes out.

so many stuff have happened recently and my views on marriage and "happily ever after" has definitely changed. i dont blame you but you made reality really really clear to me. and i dont wna see you cry anymore. knowing that when i leave, you're gg to cry yourself to sleep, when we're not w you, youre gg to let your thoughts run wild, knwing that the things you do in the day is just to show us that youre still strong but i know youre crumbling, really breaking apart deep inside. i know it cux i can feel it and cux i love you.

and now, because i love you, i am gg to be strong, gg to fight this battle w you, gg to do whatever it takes to make you proud of me, gg to study like mad so i can earn enough to make sure you'll never ever have to suffer again.